I'm an avoider. I don't like to face any problems head on, I would rather drift off into no man's land and pretend they never happened.
That said, I don't really want to live that way. If you want to go through life in a numbed state of consciousness, not only will you miss things, but you won't enjoy them either. You will come to the end of your life and wonder what happened. It would be a sorry thing to never have loved enough, enjoyed enough, suffered enough, to make a difference in your own life, and well as others.
I am looking at the beginning of a new year, just around the corner. I have had a pretty good month. There have been good days and bad ones. Thankfully, no "stop the world, I want to get off" moments. It helps to be busy. I'm looking after grandkids again. So, I'm more organized. There are some days I can't plan on getting anything done, so meals and jobs need to be prepared for and completed ahead of time. Anything I DO get done on those days, is a bonus.
I'm happier doing things this way. It feels good at the end of the day, to sit down and reflect. Everybody ate, the dishes are done, the laundry is done, and the house is tidy. (Not perfect, just tidy) And on those days, when I spend the entire day out, doing errands, my part-time job and grocery shopping, I just remember, how lucky I am to have the health, and energy to do the work I can do to keep my home managed and my family happier.
